Thud. Thud. Thud. My heart pounds in my ears, the long broken vessel wrapped up like a present in barbed wire thuds in my chest like a pounding base drum. My limbs shake, falling to my sides like the autumn leaves. My wrist aches for one sweet swipe of release. Just one is all I need to feel numb again.
Lightning strikes my mind over and over again, hitting the mark and leaving nothing but ash in its wake. I’m so weak, yet I continue on crawling through this dark world, feeling every ounce of pain it gives back. Sometimes, I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all anyway…
Like Alice, my world is crumbling around me into madness. I find myself speaking with the daisies. They offer no solace or comfort, only taunts and jeers. Maybe I belong in a world of madness after all.
I mustn’t lose my head. I can’t lose my head.
Please don’t let me lose my head..